Senior Camp 2-fright night rehearsal just ended. I felt like i have wasted my whole afternoon and evening, doing nth but wait. Long waits after long waits, there were nth for us to do, cos we were not the group in charge of fright night.
The only fun thing that we did was making the cyalume straws with the syringe. It was quite fun, thou it made my hands glow. Haha. And apparently many years of biology didnt teach me to hold the syringe correctly. I thot my way of holding was correct? Hmm...
The walk itself was a bit scary. It wasnt the tasks we had to do, it was the sudden movements that the SMs made, that made me scream. This really goes to show that, apparently i havent been paying much attention during the meetings, cos i did not i know exactly what the tasks were, and what was going to happen next. But i guess its also because of that, i screamed quite a fair bit...and made the fright night rehearsal quite an actual one for me. Haha.
Yong Leong thot i was quite funny...cos i could be laughing, screaming and telling him to be careful at the same time. Hey! How could he make fun of me! I told him to be careful, cos i knew exactly (maybe not so exact) where the dangerous parts were. I laughed when i saw the familiar faces /heard the familiar voices of the SMs. And i screamed when they jumped out or shouted at me all of a sudden. I was genuinely afraid ok! Afterall, old CGH wouldn have been so 'famous' for no reason.
Today was not a very lucky day for Havoc actually. The moment we reached there, we saw a big family. We came to know that they have bought the piece of land where old CGH was standing. OMG! That means we may not be able to use it for actual camp. Their boss came down too.
Then the police came. Then the Ah Bengs came. Then the police came again. Then the Ah Bengs and Ah Lians came again. Finally the SPI came. That was a good series of interruptions. But anyway, we managed to clear the area by 12am. So i guess it was still alright.
Red Tea Jelly with Longan. Hmm...what so special and famous abt it? Nth special leh. Haha.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Saturday, July 05, 2008
The happiest day and the saddest day.
Went to watch the NDP Preview. The turnout was uncountable. The fireworks were breathtaking. The marching and the formations were spectacular. The airshow was superb. And the performance was boring. Haha. I guess pple shared the same sentiments as many left in the middle of the perfromance.
It didnt occur to me that I was the culprit. All along i thot LZR was responsible for the incident that took place after the 1st group A mtg 1 yr ago...heaven knows i was part of it too. The news came like an asteroid hitting against me. I was crushed. Mentally. I cried very very hard. So hard, for once i felt like breaking down. I was totally drained, worn out, exhausted, whatever you can use to describe the fatigue.
I have never thot that I would be termed an irresponsible person...esp when it was only the 1st mtg...can u imagine the lousy impression i left on others? Forget abt whether i've changed for the better or whatsoever. Whats done couldnt be undone. If i were in MX shoes, i would nv forgive the person(s) that made me cry. Today we are such good frens...good group mates. To think she didnt take it to heart even thou i did hurt her before. One wouldn cry if he/she wasnt hurt. You undstd? If someone were to hurt me, i think i have the perfect reason not to forgive and forget.
Why wasnt i scolded for my behaviour then and there? I would have felt so much better. Or rather i wouldnt have felt so bad. So guilty. I cried not just becuase i made MX cry. I cried cos i was angry and disappointed with myself and childish, stupid, silly and foolish behaviour.
Went to watch the NDP Preview. The turnout was uncountable. The fireworks were breathtaking. The marching and the formations were spectacular. The airshow was superb. And the performance was boring. Haha. I guess pple shared the same sentiments as many left in the middle of the perfromance.
It didnt occur to me that I was the culprit. All along i thot LZR was responsible for the incident that took place after the 1st group A mtg 1 yr ago...heaven knows i was part of it too. The news came like an asteroid hitting against me. I was crushed. Mentally. I cried very very hard. So hard, for once i felt like breaking down. I was totally drained, worn out, exhausted, whatever you can use to describe the fatigue.
I have never thot that I would be termed an irresponsible person...esp when it was only the 1st mtg...can u imagine the lousy impression i left on others? Forget abt whether i've changed for the better or whatsoever. Whats done couldnt be undone. If i were in MX shoes, i would nv forgive the person(s) that made me cry. Today we are such good frens...good group mates. To think she didnt take it to heart even thou i did hurt her before. One wouldn cry if he/she wasnt hurt. You undstd? If someone were to hurt me, i think i have the perfect reason not to forgive and forget.
Why wasnt i scolded for my behaviour then and there? I would have felt so much better. Or rather i wouldnt have felt so bad. So guilty. I cried not just becuase i made MX cry. I cried cos i was angry and disappointed with myself and childish, stupid, silly and foolish behaviour.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Havent had so much fun since heaven-knows-when. Went Plaza Singapura to do some shopping and to rent Archie comics. It so happened that my mp3 hung on me for no reason and it so happened that there's a Creative store at PS. Voila. Managed to get it fixed on the spot.
My main aim was to shop. So we headed for Far East by foot from PS to shop for shoes and tees. It was a fruitful trip as i managed to buy 2 tees and 1 pair of shoes. Sense of satisfaction-60%. To top up the remaining 40%, we went to Bugis Street to get 2 more tees. Haha. Just nice. 99%. The last 1% was one Unagi Sushi and some soup @ Sakae Sushi.
Wanted to catch a movie at TMall, but we were a bit late. So we went home. I got a cute handphone accessory. Great day!
My main aim was to shop. So we headed for Far East by foot from PS to shop for shoes and tees. It was a fruitful trip as i managed to buy 2 tees and 1 pair of shoes. Sense of satisfaction-60%. To top up the remaining 40%, we went to Bugis Street to get 2 more tees. Haha. Just nice. 99%. The last 1% was one Unagi Sushi and some soup @ Sakae Sushi.
Wanted to catch a movie at TMall, but we were a bit late. So we went home. I got a cute handphone accessory. Great day!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Today i had my best driving lesson ever! Not cos i didnt stall, its cos i thot everything went rather smoothly.
Its for the 1st time i felt like i'm cruising in a car...wif me at the driver seat and my hands on the steering wheel.
Its also for the 1st time i felt the slight confidence in getting the vehicle moving. Goodness gracious, i even exceeded the speed limit of 60km/h on the road by 20km/h and i even got a chance to go to gear 4!
For the 1st time too, I drove past areas near my workplace, my hse, my sis's place, Daniel's place, my fave coffee shop...basically its a lot of places that i went to this afternoon.
When a guy likes a gal, he might confess to the gal.
When a gal likes a guy, she might never confess to the guy.
So what if this person makes it known to the others that he likes that person...pple have eyes to see, to judge whether this person and that person would make a compatible pair. Correct?
I'm glad there's someone who understands that person and can help that person make the judgement. Make your judgement known to this person. It would make the day of that person.
When one is busy, he always yearns for the time to rest. On the contrary, when one is so free, he wishes to be given some meaningful work to do. I dont like to waste my time doing meaningless things...but for my case, meaningless stuff is meaningful income. Understand?
Its for the 1st time i felt like i'm cruising in a car...wif me at the driver seat and my hands on the steering wheel.
Its also for the 1st time i felt the slight confidence in getting the vehicle moving. Goodness gracious, i even exceeded the speed limit of 60km/h on the road by 20km/h and i even got a chance to go to gear 4!
For the 1st time too, I drove past areas near my workplace, my hse, my sis's place, Daniel's place, my fave coffee shop...basically its a lot of places that i went to this afternoon.
When a guy likes a gal, he might confess to the gal.
When a gal likes a guy, she might never confess to the guy.
So what if this person makes it known to the others that he likes that person...pple have eyes to see, to judge whether this person and that person would make a compatible pair. Correct?
I'm glad there's someone who understands that person and can help that person make the judgement. Make your judgement known to this person. It would make the day of that person.
When one is busy, he always yearns for the time to rest. On the contrary, when one is so free, he wishes to be given some meaningful work to do. I dont like to waste my time doing meaningless things...but for my case, meaningless stuff is meaningful income. Understand?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tues nite meeting...wed nite dance practice. I have hated dancing since Sec 1 cos i believed my dancing sucks big time. Till now, i still think i can't dance but yet i feel that dancing is fun. I can't believe that i can actually rmb the steps...i shall make it a point to practise consistently, so that i wont be the weakest link during the camp. But its always easier said than done. Haha.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Single...attached...married.
Why does it matter to pple so much? Shouldnt happiness be the most important thing in life? As long as you are happy, why bother about the relationship status?
I'm just wondering.
I have every right to say "This is unfair!!!" and pple have no right to stop me, cos I've just collected concrete proof of what is called unfair. Work hard, work hard, work hard. What's the point? Slack, slack, slack...and pple turn out better than you. Was it an issue of time or was it just a little pinch of luck?
Don't go overboard. Overcooked food doesn't taste nice. The nutrients will be gone, without you realising it.
Why does it matter to pple so much? Shouldnt happiness be the most important thing in life? As long as you are happy, why bother about the relationship status?
I'm just wondering.
I have every right to say "This is unfair!!!" and pple have no right to stop me, cos I've just collected concrete proof of what is called unfair. Work hard, work hard, work hard. What's the point? Slack, slack, slack...and pple turn out better than you. Was it an issue of time or was it just a little pinch of luck?
Don't go overboard. Overcooked food doesn't taste nice. The nutrients will be gone, without you realising it.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
End of PC show (41 units today, 81 units for past 3 days)
PC Show has ended. My legs are 'sour', my throat is sore and my ear drums have been very much shaken. Thanks to my brain. The 1st and last form of celebration was treating myself to one scoop of Macademia Nut Ice-cream at Haagen Dazs.
Its really tiring. Lessons learnt:
You dont know how tired your legs are, until you sit down.
Just like you dont know how hoarse you voice has turned into, until you really get to stop shouting and talk in a normal pitch and tone.
Attitude. This is the image you portray to others. According to dictionary.com, attitude is
1. manner, disposition, feeling, position, etc., with regard to a person or thing; tendency or orientation, esp. of the mind
2. position or posture of the body appropriate to or expressive of an action, emotion
I put in my heart and soul and whatever i have, in all i do. I believe there are pple who do so as well. But i hate it when you see pple giving the heck-care attitude. Stand and smile...chat...eat Pocky...SMS...I know there is no commission. But pls. Show some responsibility, cos afterall, you are paid. If they needed vases, they wouldnt have to pay $8/h/vase. Its far too costly.
Enough of the freebies and the headsets, the carrying-cases and Windows XP. These are the taboo words at least for a week. Enough of the nonsense from those AN and AT. This is not discrimination. But sometimes it just gets on your nerves that pple ask for things that irritates you and put you in a spot. And unfortunately, it really got sth to do with cultures. Nobody can stop me from stereotyping them, cos everybody showed the same pattern, and said the same thing! Heck. I have learnt to say the word "No" today, and i realised, amazingly, it worked!
Today's mode was tuned to 'slack'. But somehow i still managed to sell a considerably reasonable no. of units. Dunno why. Maybe it had sth to do with feng shui. Haha.
Will i be spotted at Dell again during the next PC fair? I doubt so. It takes me a while for the effects of fatigue to disappear and be erased from my memory. For now, all the memories from the SITEX 07 are back. Vividly.
Its really tiring. Lessons learnt:
You dont know how tired your legs are, until you sit down.
Just like you dont know how hoarse you voice has turned into, until you really get to stop shouting and talk in a normal pitch and tone.
Attitude. This is the image you portray to others. According to dictionary.com, attitude is
1. manner, disposition, feeling, position, etc., with regard to a person or thing; tendency or orientation, esp. of the mind
2. position or posture of the body appropriate to or expressive of an action, emotion
I put in my heart and soul and whatever i have, in all i do. I believe there are pple who do so as well. But i hate it when you see pple giving the heck-care attitude. Stand and smile...chat...eat Pocky...SMS...I know there is no commission. But pls. Show some responsibility, cos afterall, you are paid. If they needed vases, they wouldnt have to pay $8/h/vase. Its far too costly.
Enough of the freebies and the headsets, the carrying-cases and Windows XP. These are the taboo words at least for a week. Enough of the nonsense from those AN and AT. This is not discrimination. But sometimes it just gets on your nerves that pple ask for things that irritates you and put you in a spot. And unfortunately, it really got sth to do with cultures. Nobody can stop me from stereotyping them, cos everybody showed the same pattern, and said the same thing! Heck. I have learnt to say the word "No" today, and i realised, amazingly, it worked!
Today's mode was tuned to 'slack'. But somehow i still managed to sell a considerably reasonable no. of units. Dunno why. Maybe it had sth to do with feng shui. Haha.
Will i be spotted at Dell again during the next PC fair? I doubt so. It takes me a while for the effects of fatigue to disappear and be erased from my memory. For now, all the memories from the SITEX 07 are back. Vividly.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Arh...my long awaited PC show...the tiring and leg-breaking day i've been looking forward to since heaven knows when. Pple question me...why do i like to do this kind of job? Why would i want to stand the whole day, talk the whole day and fake a plastic smile to people you don't feel like entertaining, or sometimes to people whom you are cursing and swearing furiously deep down inside? My ans is...i don't know too.
Today was busy.
To the extent that i didn't really eat lunch and dinner, if you were to ignore the little blueberry cream bun that i had at 6pm.
To the extent that i didnt have time for toilet.
To the extent that i kept one group of customers waiting while i served my other customers.
To the extent that i didn't even keep track of time.
To the extent that i didn't know how i survived today.
Tomorrow is another day of uncertainty. The target is a ridiculous figure of 20 sets. You think tts possible? You think laptops cost $129.90 instead of $1299? Its not easy earning pple's money, especially when you know that the stuff you are selling, is less competitive than the other brands.
Customers came to me with brocures from Acer and Compaq. They made me do the comparisons for them. Even Dell laptops from the retail booths are much more attractive than what we the direct sales are selling. How am i supposed to convince the customers when u realise that after matching all the specs, we are most expensive than the other brands? I don't cheat you see. I am a consumer 99.9% of the time. I understand how it feels when the $$$ figures stare at you. $200 difference is a difference! You can't tell pple, "oh, for that $200, you get to purchase a Dell laptop (and not any other brands) and you get to choose from 8 colours!" Cos i would rather keep my $200 and go for a normal-looking Compaq or NEC laptop, so long as the specs are good. Afterall, most laptops look normal. And same goes for their owners.
But then again, i'm ashamed that this year, we are selling notebooks with such outdated specs. I know they wanted to make the prices look attractive...but i could almost feel myself blushing everytime i mention the additional costs of upgrades to the customers. Because, after all the addition, its no longer seems that good and cheap a deal! And the best thing, once again, is us selling more expensive than our retail booth! I hate this. Why are we, the direct dealers, more expensive than the retail dealers!!! Its so irritating! Its as if we are driving away our customers...as if the non-casn & carry policy isnt doing so enough.
Oh well oh well. Thats sales. And of cos, you meet all kinds of customers. Humourous, not-humourous-but-try-to-act-humourous, cheapskates, wealthy, knowlegable, smart-alecs, friendly, arrogant...and many more. I can't help but reflect on which category i fall into 99.9% of the time.
I know we are paid. But we are workers, not slaves. The least those whoevers can do is to appreciate what we are doing for them. Its not my fault that customers take their time to make a decision. Mind you, its a $1000+++ deal that we are talking abt here. Esp in times of inflation and other rubbish, time for consideration is definitely necessary.
I didnt lose my cool. (When customers were around.)
I didnt lose my smile. (When customers were around.)
No matter how fake i look. (As compared to when customers are not around.)
Afterall sales is service.
Today was busy.
To the extent that i didn't really eat lunch and dinner, if you were to ignore the little blueberry cream bun that i had at 6pm.
To the extent that i didnt have time for toilet.
To the extent that i kept one group of customers waiting while i served my other customers.
To the extent that i didn't even keep track of time.
To the extent that i didn't know how i survived today.
Tomorrow is another day of uncertainty. The target is a ridiculous figure of 20 sets. You think tts possible? You think laptops cost $129.90 instead of $1299? Its not easy earning pple's money, especially when you know that the stuff you are selling, is less competitive than the other brands.
Customers came to me with brocures from Acer and Compaq. They made me do the comparisons for them. Even Dell laptops from the retail booths are much more attractive than what we the direct sales are selling. How am i supposed to convince the customers when u realise that after matching all the specs, we are most expensive than the other brands? I don't cheat you see. I am a consumer 99.9% of the time. I understand how it feels when the $$$ figures stare at you. $200 difference is a difference! You can't tell pple, "oh, for that $200, you get to purchase a Dell laptop (and not any other brands) and you get to choose from 8 colours!" Cos i would rather keep my $200 and go for a normal-looking Compaq or NEC laptop, so long as the specs are good. Afterall, most laptops look normal. And same goes for their owners.
But then again, i'm ashamed that this year, we are selling notebooks with such outdated specs. I know they wanted to make the prices look attractive...but i could almost feel myself blushing everytime i mention the additional costs of upgrades to the customers. Because, after all the addition, its no longer seems that good and cheap a deal! And the best thing, once again, is us selling more expensive than our retail booth! I hate this. Why are we, the direct dealers, more expensive than the retail dealers!!! Its so irritating! Its as if we are driving away our customers...as if the non-casn & carry policy isnt doing so enough.
Oh well oh well. Thats sales. And of cos, you meet all kinds of customers. Humourous, not-humourous-but-try-to-act-humourous, cheapskates, wealthy, knowlegable, smart-alecs, friendly, arrogant...and many more. I can't help but reflect on which category i fall into 99.9% of the time.
I know we are paid. But we are workers, not slaves. The least those whoevers can do is to appreciate what we are doing for them. Its not my fault that customers take their time to make a decision. Mind you, its a $1000+++ deal that we are talking abt here. Esp in times of inflation and other rubbish, time for consideration is definitely necessary.
I didnt lose my cool. (When customers were around.)
I didnt lose my smile. (When customers were around.)
No matter how fake i look. (As compared to when customers are not around.)
Afterall sales is service.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
End of Special Sem
Yeah. Special sem exam is finally over. Its hard, cos while pple are enjoying their hols, we the special sem-ers are working hard for that one exam. But i guess, its still more worth it, especially there's less things to cope with at a time. The STARS timetable for next sem is out, and i think it looked yucky. If only i'm not taking EEE...at least the module titles would look more interesting and "appetising". Haha. Thats just a thot that crosses my mind once in a while. Or shd i say many times in a while. LOL.
Tmr is the IT Show. The day i've been looking forward to. Its definitely not because i get to stand continuously for 9 hours or i have to explain the same things over and over again...its just because i like the nature of such job. Maybe its too soon to speak...but trust me. If i hadn't liked the kinda stuff, i wouldn't have dug my own grave. Who would do sth that they dun like? But then again, that person happens to be me again.
I hope that the PC show would be a fun one. :)
Tmr is the IT Show. The day i've been looking forward to. Its definitely not because i get to stand continuously for 9 hours or i have to explain the same things over and over again...its just because i like the nature of such job. Maybe its too soon to speak...but trust me. If i hadn't liked the kinda stuff, i wouldn't have dug my own grave. Who would do sth that they dun like? But then again, that person happens to be me again.
I hope that the PC show would be a fun one. :)
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Interesting Pocky
With these exotic and interesting flavours...don't you feel tempted? And mind you...those Pocky didnt cost more than S$ 1.50. Don't u agree that we are deprived of right to cheap unique and yummy Pocky flavours?
Thursday, June 05, 2008
4.07 am...a SMS woke me up. The reply is: I've gotten over it. I'm not sad. I'm just tired.
Sometimes we dont have a choice. And sometimes we are just fated not being able to accomplish certain things. What i am today isnt my choice and i hate to believe that that is MY life. I am a victim of the consequences attached to the choice of no-choice. You understand?
Wednesday is astro exam. After that, thou i foresee i would be even busier, i hope tts freedom.
Sometimes we dont have a choice. And sometimes we are just fated not being able to accomplish certain things. What i am today isnt my choice and i hate to believe that that is MY life. I am a victim of the consequences attached to the choice of no-choice. You understand?
Wednesday is astro exam. After that, thou i foresee i would be even busier, i hope tts freedom.
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05 June 2008 . 1:13am
Results out. Disappointment.
Time after time, i've been questioning myself why is that so. Why am i always the weakest link? I know i'm in no position to say anything cos there are pple out there who have done worse and need more consolation than I do...but the point is everyone has different expectations. I dont see why should i be deprived of the chance to be sad, to lament about my results, to ask pple to console me. Just because i'm not as unfortunate as others?
Since day 1, i have been blaming everything on Earth that could be blamed. Why is life so unfair? Why cant we borned equal? Why cant we be at the very least, be appreciated of ALL our efforts?
I cant to bear to see my results cui-ing day after day. I dont even want to look at my results for the 2nd time. Whats the point?
Resolutions are always easier said than done. Mug at library everyday? Study hard? Bullshit. I might just scold anyone who dares to tell me i havent worked hard enough.
Maybe pple dont see my point. Maybe some pple never will. If only my blog is as unknown as some unknown pple's blogs...so that nobody will understand what i'm talking abt, so that i can truly vent all my frustration.
05 June 2008 . 1:13am
Results out. Disappointment.
Time after time, i've been questioning myself why is that so. Why am i always the weakest link? I know i'm in no position to say anything cos there are pple out there who have done worse and need more consolation than I do...but the point is everyone has different expectations. I dont see why should i be deprived of the chance to be sad, to lament about my results, to ask pple to console me. Just because i'm not as unfortunate as others?
Since day 1, i have been blaming everything on Earth that could be blamed. Why is life so unfair? Why cant we borned equal? Why cant we be at the very least, be appreciated of ALL our efforts?
I cant to bear to see my results cui-ing day after day. I dont even want to look at my results for the 2nd time. Whats the point?
Resolutions are always easier said than done. Mug at library everyday? Study hard? Bullshit. I might just scold anyone who dares to tell me i havent worked hard enough.
Maybe pple dont see my point. Maybe some pple never will. If only my blog is as unknown as some unknown pple's blogs...so that nobody will understand what i'm talking abt, so that i can truly vent all my frustration.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
Eve of Senior Camp
Tmr is senior camp. After having chaired part of Havoc's mtg for the last 3 weeks, things seemed to be roughly in shape. But the actual thing is always different from the ideal. Deviation is inevitable...it just depends on how much it will deviate from ideal. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that things won't spin out of control. The seniors are my friends...they won't make things difficult for me, will they? They won't give harsh criticisms and hurting remarks, will they? Very soon these questions will be answered.
I believe i would be able to handle...this is not a form of motivation, although apparently it it. I am ME and I know i am not a weakling. No matter what comes, I'll be able to handle fine. Besides, there's always the Havoc Tops to help me.
For now, I have to familiarise myself with everything. I can't make any blunder that will reflect badly on myself. No room for mistakes.
Today is the Eve of Senior Camp 1.
I believe i would be able to handle...this is not a form of motivation, although apparently it it. I am ME and I know i am not a weakling. No matter what comes, I'll be able to handle fine. Besides, there's always the Havoc Tops to help me.
For now, I have to familiarise myself with everything. I can't make any blunder that will reflect badly on myself. No room for mistakes.
Today is the Eve of Senior Camp 1.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I was so very tempted to type the whole entry in chinese...but i dont see how i am able to accomplish it. So better not waste time.
My 3rd driving lesson le. I finally got onto the main road, but i really screwed things up by stalling the stupid engine twice. Consecutively somemore. Right smack in the middle of the big cross junction near Bedok Swimming Pool, where traffic was so heavy. Its just sheer luck i'm got many patient drivers behind the steering wheels of the many vehicles behind me.
I'm starting to doubt whether i have made the right choice in taking special sem. Pple around me are all working...while me...Given a timetable of Tues, Wed AFTERNOON lessons...what can i do? There's nth i can do.
I'm sick again. So sian. Everything is tasteless and odourless...i feel so sick. Life is as bland as plain water. Not even honey green tea can perk me up, cos i wont be able to taste it.
Don't feel like eating, cos i don't want to waste the nice food.
Don't feel like studying astro, cos i'm mentally exhausted.
Don't feel like watching tv, cos it makes me tired.
Don't feel like sleeping, cos i can't seem to fall asleep.
Don't feel like doing anything, cos there are too many things to be done.
Don't feel like typing anymore although there are so many things i feel like telling cos i'm too sick to do so.
Talk to me.
My 3rd driving lesson le. I finally got onto the main road, but i really screwed things up by stalling the stupid engine twice. Consecutively somemore. Right smack in the middle of the big cross junction near Bedok Swimming Pool, where traffic was so heavy. Its just sheer luck i'm got many patient drivers behind the steering wheels of the many vehicles behind me.
I'm starting to doubt whether i have made the right choice in taking special sem. Pple around me are all working...while me...Given a timetable of Tues, Wed AFTERNOON lessons...what can i do? There's nth i can do.
I'm sick again. So sian. Everything is tasteless and odourless...i feel so sick. Life is as bland as plain water. Not even honey green tea can perk me up, cos i wont be able to taste it.
Don't feel like eating, cos i don't want to waste the nice food.
Don't feel like studying astro, cos i'm mentally exhausted.
Don't feel like watching tv, cos it makes me tired.
Don't feel like sleeping, cos i can't seem to fall asleep.
Don't feel like doing anything, cos there are too many things to be done.
Don't feel like typing anymore although there are so many things i feel like telling cos i'm too sick to do so.
Talk to me.
Friday, May 23, 2008
I hate hall
Staying in hall is so troublesome.
I really don't understand why the school is making things so difficult for us. We are paying them more than a thousand bucks a year, and there they are making things hard for us-their customers. What the heck. Firstly, they came up with the stupid idea of triple-sharing, without considering the welfare of the the students.You look at the size of the room. Having to house one more person is not just about that person. Its about adding an extra bed, extra table, extra cabinet and extra moving space, without compromising too much of that of the other 2 roomies. How is that possible? You can easily think about all the possible problems and unhappiness that would arise with your kneecap put on.
And then they thought of another stupid idea of the double-decker bed...those kind with a small pathetic table below. Who would want to be the 3rd person if he/she has to pay the same amount of $$$ as the other 2 roomies?
Fine. With or without the silent protest, the obviously-foolish plan was called off. So how? To make the now-happy students who were unhappy about the triple-sharing idea unhappy, they set the cut-off to be 15 points. That would make less than 10% of the hall-ites eligible to continue staying.
Whats the point of joining this and that, making ourselves busy like anything-you-can-think of ??? For that stupid recommendation letter-which requires you to write 450 words to explain everything on Earth, and requires you to go through whatever selection, interview and signing of contract. WHAT THE HECK! Seriously had it not been the fact that I live in Tampines, you think i would even bother to think about all these junk? I might as well just go to school and come back when school ends, like the times in Sec sch and JC. And pri school. What a nice name -discretionary list - where whether you stay in hall is up to the stupid hall's discretion. Its just plain threatening.
"It is compulsory for all successful applicants to attend all the hall activities held through the academic year.
2. Termination from hall will be considered if applicant fails to comply with any of the respective requirements as stated in their individual agreement.
3. All applicants will be monitored by the Hall Fellows, if performance deemed unsatisfactory their application will be revoked. "
This is ridiculous.
What about those people who can't multitask, who cant cope with academic work when they want us to join so many silly stuff? Maybe they would be terminated from school. Does it mean theat when that happens, they can continue to stay in hall? They didnt specify that you have to be an existing student of NTU to stay in hall in their clause, did they?
I am really angry. I don't like to be treated like dirt, or to put it in a nicer way, I like to be given respect. I think even spending $1000+++ for a handbag or for a pair of shoes or even donating it, would make me feel better...cos at least I feel the appreciation by the shop, by the people or at least, i own a new bag/pair of shoes...Right now...i yearn to see the day when there is just 10% of the total hall population staying in hall. But i know that day will never come.
No choice, i still have to fill in the application form and rack my brains for 450 words. When can i just quit hall, and totally exit myself from the stupid hall system?
I really don't understand why the school is making things so difficult for us. We are paying them more than a thousand bucks a year, and there they are making things hard for us-their customers. What the heck. Firstly, they came up with the stupid idea of triple-sharing, without considering the welfare of the the students.You look at the size of the room. Having to house one more person is not just about that person. Its about adding an extra bed, extra table, extra cabinet and extra moving space, without compromising too much of that of the other 2 roomies. How is that possible? You can easily think about all the possible problems and unhappiness that would arise with your kneecap put on.
And then they thought of another stupid idea of the double-decker bed...those kind with a small pathetic table below. Who would want to be the 3rd person if he/she has to pay the same amount of $$$ as the other 2 roomies?
Fine. With or without the silent protest, the obviously-foolish plan was called off. So how? To make the now-happy students who were unhappy about the triple-sharing idea unhappy, they set the cut-off to be 15 points. That would make less than 10% of the hall-ites eligible to continue staying.
Whats the point of joining this and that, making ourselves busy like anything-you-can-think of ??? For that stupid recommendation letter-which requires you to write 450 words to explain everything on Earth, and requires you to go through whatever selection, interview and signing of contract. WHAT THE HECK! Seriously had it not been the fact that I live in Tampines, you think i would even bother to think about all these junk? I might as well just go to school and come back when school ends, like the times in Sec sch and JC. And pri school. What a nice name -discretionary list - where whether you stay in hall is up to the stupid hall's discretion. Its just plain threatening.
"It is compulsory for all successful applicants to attend all the hall activities held through the academic year.
2. Termination from hall will be considered if applicant fails to comply with any of the respective requirements as stated in their individual agreement.
3. All applicants will be monitored by the Hall Fellows, if performance deemed unsatisfactory their application will be revoked. "
This is ridiculous.
What about those people who can't multitask, who cant cope with academic work when they want us to join so many silly stuff? Maybe they would be terminated from school. Does it mean theat when that happens, they can continue to stay in hall? They didnt specify that you have to be an existing student of NTU to stay in hall in their clause, did they?
I am really angry. I don't like to be treated like dirt, or to put it in a nicer way, I like to be given respect. I think even spending $1000+++ for a handbag or for a pair of shoes or even donating it, would make me feel better...cos at least I feel the appreciation by the shop, by the people or at least, i own a new bag/pair of shoes...Right now...i yearn to see the day when there is just 10% of the total hall population staying in hall. But i know that day will never come.
No choice, i still have to fill in the application form and rack my brains for 450 words. When can i just quit hall, and totally exit myself from the stupid hall system?
Friday, May 16, 2008
Gross Sakae Sushi
Finally got to eat sushi wif mum and sis again...woo...so nice, but so ex. Due to INFLATION and the rising price of rice, sushi price up-ed form $1.99 to $2.29. Sian. The cashier was a noob, not knowing how to count, not knowing how to understand the promotions going on. In any case, it was my 1st time eating a gross salmon sushi too. The 1st and the last time. Yucks.
Went to check my eyesight, yeah, the degree dropped (or whatever u call that). But that also meant that no changing of specs this year. Haha.
So happy that the gathering @ Art of Music was postponed, thou i was really informed at the very last min by chance. I wasn't angry, i was happy! Think i really dun like the place, lol. Or maybe i really loved staying at home so much. Zzz, thats denial!
Managed to finally reformat my laptop, after the many hours of backing up. Have yet to bring the files back...so mafan. Sigh, stop procrastinating!
Went to check my eyesight, yeah, the degree dropped (or whatever u call that). But that also meant that no changing of specs this year. Haha.
So happy that the gathering @ Art of Music was postponed, thou i was really informed at the very last min by chance. I wasn't angry, i was happy! Think i really dun like the place, lol. Or maybe i really loved staying at home so much. Zzz, thats denial!
Managed to finally reformat my laptop, after the many hours of backing up. Have yet to bring the files back...so mafan. Sigh, stop procrastinating!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
My 154th post...too bad it had to be an emo one. Last nite havoc mtg...my 1st time chairing a mtg. Seriously i wasnt very stressed, just that maybe i wasnt prepared and experienced enough. The tops and the commpointed out a lot of stuff...and i'm just too tired to think abt the stuff. Of cos i'm happy they made me the top of senior camp, but...its just very sian...cos there are so many things to be done and to be considered. Just typing the email to zk alone...i cant even managed to finish typing w/o feeling the urge to give up. Sigh. So much so for senior's camp...why are the seniors lidat? i mean arent they kind pple like the QPeeps and the JCRC pple? why must they be treated like the royals? Its purely cos of their expected behavious that i'm getting this humongous and tremendous stress.
I think i need to sleep soon.
I think i need to sleep soon.
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